Honestly? I'm better.
Not the Plan
but the beginning.
In 2009, I dropped out of college and bought a one-way train ticket to New York City. Fashion was the dream. I was so sure.
I got there. I existed inside it. And then it slowly hit me — this isn't mine. Not because I wasn't capable, but because capability and calling are two completely different things.
So I did what most people don't talk about. I pivoted.
I leaned into creativity, storytelling, digital content — the things that actually lit me up. Over time, I built a name for myself online and launched Tot Spot Media, a digital content and marketing agency helping entrepreneurs turn their stories into brands that made impact and income. I wrote my first book at seven months pregnant. I spoke on stages for companies like Google and TD Bank. I was recognized by the White House at the United State of Women Summit for my work in gender equality.
From the outside, it looked like I'd figured it out.
Life had other plans.
The Moment
everything changed.
In May 2024, I lost my job. No warning. No explanation. Just gone.
But honestly? God had already been preparing me for this kind of stillness.
In 2023, I became a living kidney donor for my cousin. That decision pulled me completely out of my own hustle — out of the business, the pace, the constant need to be in control. For a season, I was forced to sit still and actually listen. It was uncomfortable. It was also the beginning of something I didn't have words for yet.
So when the job disappeared a year later, I'd already had a taste of what surrender looked like. I could have spiraled. Instead, the very next day I ended up in a bookstore — just grabbing a couple of books I'd already had my eye on. Normal errand. Nothing intentional about it. And then I stumbled onto this one book on prayer. Picked it up, almost put it back down, and didn't.
That moment — quiet, unplanned, nothing-special-about-it — is where everything shifted.
I started choosing God for real. Not the version I grew up around. Not the "I know of Him" faith. The I need You, I'm surrendering everything kind. And it wasn't pretty. It looked like letting go of who I thought I was supposed to be by now. Letting go of timelines. Letting go of control and the pride that comes with always being the person who figures it out.
Around the same time, I made another decision people don't always celebrate: I went back home. As a grown woman. As a mother. And yeah, that came with its own weight.
But what I gained — time, support, perspective, space to rebuild for real — was worth every feeling that came with it. I stopped performing adulthood and started being intentional about my actual life.
Building in the
rebuilding season.
I didn't disappear in that season. I documented it.
I created the Closed for Maintenance podcast — not because I had it together, but because I didn't. I started gathering people in weekly Zoom calls who were also trying to figure out life, faith, and purpose in real time. That became the Lost & Found Tribe — a community for people who've been lost and are learning what it means to be found.
I'm almost 40. I'm balancing a 9-to-5, motherhood, and a vision still unfolding. I'm not hiding any of it.
The whole point is the process.
If you are here,
you probably already know.
You're in a season of something. A transition, a restart, a quiet rebuilding that doesn't look like much from the outside yet.
You don't need someone to tell you to hustle harder. You need someone to remind you that where you are right now is not where you'll stay — and that the pause, the pivot, the going-back-home moment? That's not failure. That's foundation.
That's what this is all about.
Listen to the podcast. Join the community. Or if you need someone in your corner for content, brand, or storytelling work — reach out.
I'm not the loudest voice in the room. But I might be the one that makes you finally pause and get honest about your life.